KONSEP DIRI MAHASISWA KEDOKTERAN DENGAN PENGALAMAN IMPOSTOR DALAM KONTEKS RELASI KELUARGA: STUDI KUALITATIF

ABSTRACT Medical students undergo an educational process characterized by academic and emotional demands that may give rise to doubts about their competence, even when their academic achievements indicate success. The impostor phenomenon has been examined in relation to various psychological and family factors; however, an in-depth understanding is still needed of how medical students interpret the relationship between their actual selves, ideal selves, and family experiences. This study aims to explore the self-concept of medical students who experience the impostor phenomenon within the context of family relationships. A qualitative approach employing thematic analysis was used. Four medical students were selected through purposive sampling after undergoing screening with the Clance Impostor Phenomenon Scale (CIPS), using a minimum score of 61 as the inclusion criterion. Data were collected through in-depth interviews and analyzed thematically. The findings revealed that two participants demonstrated relatively congruent relationships between their actual and ideal selves, whereas the other two exhibited incongruence. Nevertheless, all four participants continued to experience doubts about their competence. Success and praise were interpreted in different ways: as recognition of personal ability, as outcomes attributable to external factors, or as pressure to maintain performance. Family relationships served as a context in which values, standards, support, and parenting experiences were formed, although these were internalized differently by each participant. The study concludes that the impostor phenomenon cannot be adequately explained solely by individual ability or family support; rather, it needs to be understood through the processes by which individuals evaluate themselves and interpret evidence of their competence. ABSTRAK Mahasiswa kedokteran menjalani proses pendidikan dengan tuntutan akademik dan emosional yang dapat memunculkan keraguan terhadap kompetensi, bahkan ketika capaian belajar menunjukkan keberhasilan. Pengalaman impostor telah dikaji melalui berbagai faktor psikologis dan keluarga, tetapi cara mahasiswa memaknai hubungan antara diri aktual, diri ideal, dan pengalaman relasional keluarga masih perlu dipahami secara mendalam. Penelitian ini bertujuan mengeksplorasi konsep diri mahasiswa kedokteran yang mengalami impostor dalam konteks relasi keluarga. Penelitian menggunakan pendekatan kualitatif dengan analisis tematik. Empat mahasiswa kedokteran dipilih melalui purposive sampling setelah menjalani penyaringan menggunakan Clance Impostor Phenomenon Scale (CIPS), dengan skor minimal 61. Data dikumpulkan melalui wawancara mendalam dan dianalisis secara tematik. Hasil penelitian memperlihatkan dua partisipan memiliki hubungan yang relatif kongruen antara diri aktual dan diri ideal, sedangkan dua lainnya menunjukkan inkongruensi. Meskipun demikian, keempat partisipan tetap mengalami keraguan terhadap kompetensi. Keberhasilan dan pujian dimaknai secara beragam: sebagai pengakuan atas kemampuan, hasil faktor eksternal, atau tuntutan untuk mempertahankan kinerja. Relasi keluarga hadir sebagai ruang pembentukan nilai, standar, dukungan, dan pengalaman pengasuhan yang dihayati secara berbeda. Penelitian ini menyimpulkan bahwa pengalaman impostor tidak cukup dijelaskan melalui kemampuan atau dukungan keluarga, tetapi perlu dipahami melalui proses individu mengevaluasi diri dan menafsirkan bukti kompetensinya.