Bulimic filmmaking

I began the artist film project Discovery in Silence (DiS) in 2022 to explore an intergenerational history. Bulimia nervosa has affected three generations of my family—my late grandmother, my aunt, and me. This raised a question: how could a mental disorderFootnote1 could function not only as an artistic concern but also as an active artistic method? DiS is an ongoing project with 34 chapters, each representing a moment of discovery. Every film, discussion event, and workshop acts as a critical milestone within the project’s broader development. Through this process I realised that I am not only observing the disorder but am in fact acting through it. The project therefore aims to expose how it operates through the body, moving images, and creative acts. The latest chapter, How Would You Like Your Bulimic Film Served?, consists of three experimental film chapters. Rather than following a script, I turned the camera toward the spaces and temporalities of a bulimic episode, attempting to capture the disorder in action—its face, its voice, and manipulative movements. Through obsessive exposure, editing, layering, and live reflection, I re-author my own experience from within, confronting vulnerability while reclaiming agency. It challenges silence around eating disorders and invites collective transparency and dialogue.