The site of my breasts: intersectional layers of identities, desire and being

Purpose The author of “The site of my breasts: intersectional layers of identities, desire and being” reflects on their complex relationship with body image, desire and identity through the lens of puberty, motherhood and societal expectations. Growing up, the author fantasized about achieving desirability through physical traits, especially breasts, which they believed would grant them power and worth. However, their body did not conform to these ideals, leading to feelings of inadequacy and shame. Through miscarriages, pregnancy and breastfeeding, the author eventually redefined their sense of worth, shifting from external validation to internal recognition of their value as a mother and individual. Design/methodology/approach Reflexive autoethnographic narrative Findings Social identities and lived experiences are intersectionally entwined with notions of self-worth at unconscious and conscious levels. Through reflexive study, one can unlearn internalized social status and therefore begin to build more authentic and empowered feelings of worthiness and desirability. Originality/value This unique reflexive autoethnographic narrative supports practices in reflexivity as a gateway to more empowered living experiences with self and others.