I am Fine, but I am Trembling

The concept of non-hierarchical collaboration in score-based music offers a new perspective on the score and the instrument as distinct agents within the creative process. This case study, based on my co-creative collaboration with composer Francisco Corthey, explores how my relationship with the instrument – and other experiential factors – shaped the development of the composition, addressed ethical questions surrounding collaboration, and contributed to the production of musical meaning in a work presented to me as a notated score.By sharing control over musical parameters with my instrument and body – and by deliberately unlearning aspects of my instrumental technique – I aimed to cultivate a practice specific to this work, one that treats the musical composition as a site- and context-responsive event. This approach led me to examine how elements such as performance context, venue, and audience affect the emergence of meaning and inform my evolving performance strategies, through processes of responsiveness and an awareness of fragility as a generative force.Several of these reflections are gathered in the Shared Space model – an ongoing artistic experiment that explores inclusive, responsive practices within concert settings.<style>/* rules to make button only show up in META */.download-accessible { display:none;}.meta-right-col .download-accessible { display: inline-block; padding: 9px; margin-bottom:25px; border: 1px solid black; background-color:white;}</style><a class="download-accessible" href="/profile/download-media?work=3955500&file=3955517" title="This accessible PDF is a derivative of the original which it is meant to support and not replace.">Download Accessible PDF</a></span> keywords: co-creation, fragility, Shared Space, Musicking, contemporary music, performance practice